My Dearest Lily,
I write this letter to express my deepest feeling I hope one day I will move on from all the pain. it's day 15th of January 2022. I'm living my usual life with my ordinary routine. In the Morning I wake up 6:30 am to prepare for work, then I take my lunch always at the office then go home at 6:00pm, eat my dinner, and same routine in the next day. there's so much differences when I'm with you. I miss you so bad. I don't know what can excite me anymore. I'm so drain, I feel tired and tired everyday. I can't even take care of myself. I'm so sad love, really sad. I want you to be free and happy. I want to give you my all but I keep on disappointing you. I love you so so much. I'm always praying to God that I hope we will be successful together. Buy anything we want, have our own home, travel together, have pairs of rabbits, having busy decorating our CnS Garden with full of different varieties of Cactus and Succulents, build our own Honey Bees area where we can start to make our own hives with lots of Bees and Honey, buy our dream Semi Van for business purposes and for travel as well. I would really love to fulfill those dreams with you. I don't know why we ended up here. I don't want to lose you, I can't lose you. But every time I insisted to keep you I just make it all worst and now I already
